Doing some file migration and organizing my dusty digital archives. Found a cache of old (decade+) recordings of me from when I fancied myself a singer-songwriter (along with scattered poetry which will never see the light of day). I believe this was recorded in a friend’s “home studio,” i.e. mic + computer, i.e. one step up from my “bathroom recordings” phase.
This one was called Cold For Spring.
Determined to present without comment. Enjoy.
To look at the work of someone so clearly talented and funny and consider the darkness of their internal world is difficult, even when we ourselves are sometimes the talented ones in the darkness. You’d think we’d be better at knowing what to say to each other, as though empathy and an equivalency of intellect would be enough to put the right words in our mouths…
The comic makes light of the recovery process (and has some obvious gaps in descriptions of actual medical treatments, making it appear like recovery is the luck of the draw… which may feel true from inside the depression bubble, but from a scientific perspective is usually not the case), but it does an exemplary job of capturing both the difficulty of communicating with “normal” people when you’re depressed, and reaching out for help when you’re suicidal.
This is why we need better education about suicide intervention methodology in our community. None of us should be speechless on the couch when a friend needs us.
I mean, without Allie, we wouldn’t have been able to
In a surprise upset, a Twitter follower actually asked me what I think about a gender-equality-in-technology issue on which I had decided to remain silent. Alas…
In February the Violet Blue BSides SF talk (about harm reduction in the arena of drug fueled sexcapades) vs Ada Initiative thing happened. BSides leadership got spooked by a complaint and pulled her talk unilaterally. I was of the opinion that different conferences cater to different audiences, so the idea of having a sex-based talk isn’t troublesome in the right environment. Throw a trigger warning on it and let people decide for themselves. The speaker has bona fide credentials and having watched a similar talk she did for 29c3, it was unlikely that the the content itself would be in any way sexist or poorly handled. I was dismayed to watch Ada Initiative’s credibility plummet as the fiasco progressed, because despite individual baggage brought to the organization, the work they’ve done overall has been clearly positive.
Less than a month later, PyGate happened (or Donglegate, if you prefer). In this case, I thought the conference organizers handled Adria’s complaint well. They took her report and removed the offenders, per their posted guidelines.
However, every other plot point in the story has #WellThatEscalatedQuicky attached to it.
So to answer the initial inquiry…. I watched PyGate while wrinkling my nose and continually muttering “Well, that’s unfortunate…” with the voyeuristic luxury of someone uninvolved in the real consequences of the event and its aftermath. Even though I didn’t necessarily agree with Adria’s choices, there was no benefit to me saying so in the midst of watching her receive endless hateful messages. I actually felt compelled to say supportive things to counter the attacks, and I knew that went against my initial reaction to what this was supposed to be about. So I said nothing.
I usually regard the Anti-Porn feminists with the same side-eye I use for the Being-On-Girls-Gone-Wild-Is-Empowering feminists. In the past, these distinctions haven’t been necessary when it comes to feminists in technology. We could all rally around “Hey, I’d like a job, please!” and “No, you don’t need to help me solder that.” It’s so much easier when there are clear causes to support, when the offense doesn’t need a “you had to be there to get it” tagline, when cons were gatherings of individuals with common interests and not summits of corporate representation.
It’s a sign of success that we’ve progressed to the point of arguing about the official response to a dongle complaint. This may be a period of overcorrection, but that means we are moving. I just hope we find the middle road before we lose what little hard-fought credibility the “sexism in technology is real” memetic has garnered.
Rep. John Kavanagh, R-Fountain Hills, wants to create Arizona’s first law governing restroom privileges. Under Senate Bill 1432, someone would be guilty of disorderly conduct [Class 1 misdemeanor, punishable by a $2,500 fine and up to six months in jail] if he or she uses a bathroom, locker room or dressing room that’s not designated for the sex listed on his or her birth certificate.
Critics of Phoenix’s move have repeatedly raised fears that the city opened the door for sexual predators to share bathrooms with women and girls. They labeled it the “bathroom bill,” a nickname gay-rights advocates said was an inflammatory distraction.
“This is about the person who will use gender identity or expression as their ruse to gain access to opposite-sex facilities,” Cathi Herrod, president of the conservative Center for Arizona Policy, said after the council approved the ordinance.
“The city of Phoenix has crafted a bill that allows people to define their sex by what they think in their head,” Kavanagh told 12 News. “It also raises the specter of people who want to go into those opposite sex facilities not because they’re transgendered, (but) because maybe that they’re just weird.”
What the actual fuck.
After not having run more than 4 consecutive miles since the Wineglass Marathon in November, I eeked out a 2:05:43 in the NYC Half Marathon today. Maybe if I actually get back to regular running I can break the 2 hour mark for the MORE / Fitness Magazine Women’s Half Marathon in April!
Um, also I bought Vibrams. DON’T WORRY I’M NOT RUNNING DISTANCE IN THEM, sheesh.